God is GOOD!

narscissa · Seventh-day Adventist Joined: 21 Nov 2003 Posts: 38

He is merciful and kind and tenderhearted toward us, even when we are angry and distressed, even when we are railing against Him and blaming Him. He knows the storms of our souls, knows this sickness we all carry inside us called sin and what it does to us. He is compassionate toward us.

The Lord has been patiently wrestling with me to get up at His appointed hour to spend time with Him in the morning. I'm not so great at this -- His appointed hour happens to be 4 a.m. -- but I have to admit, for some reason, I can sure "hear" a lot better at that hour than any other. Maybe it's because the rest of the world is quiet then!

I have to state that the past couple of days were not so good for me. I seem to be on a 5-10 day cycle of some sort where my faith and devotion will peak wonderfully, and then without warning I will spiral down to the lowest depths of my own personal 'hell', and lose touch with God, feel forsaken, the whole nine yards. Depression? Spiritual warfare? maybe a little of both. Things I joyfully embraced just days before as certain assurances of His word suddenly evaporate (and much of my sanity with them).

But He always keeps ahold of me, and He doesn't lose track of me even if I lose track of Him.

This morning He roused me with these words, "I will instruct thee and teach thee in the way thou shalt go; I will guide thee with Mine eye." Now of course I know that's from scripture, but I didn't know where in scripture. And I'd been crying out to Him so much yesterday (in the midst of all this darkness) - God where are You? Please speak to me, I need to hear You! I need You to guide me!

So as I was praying and talking with Him this morning (and confessing and forsaking sin) He told me -- or rather at least, I got the impression -- "read Psalm 32." So I did. It started out,

"Blessed is he whose transgression is forgiven,
Whose sin is covered.
Blessed is the man to whom the LORD does not impute iniquity,
And in whose spirit there is no deceit. "

And it got better and better, describing exactly what it feels like when I'm down in that dark place and how it feels when sin, or even the awareness of sinfulNESS, makes me feel lost and far from Him. Verse 7 is beautiful promises:

"You are my hiding place;
You shall preserve me from trouble;
You shall surround me with songs of deliverance."

But then I got to verse 8 ... VERSE 8 ... WOAH!!!

Verse 8 reads:

"I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go;
I will guide you with My eye. "

The exact same words He had woken me up with, as if He was reassuring me, "you see? I AM really here, and I DO really talk to you ... you just need to come to Me and listen."

He is so good!