by Nomark » Tue Jun 18, 2002 3:15 pm
Brother Digital: I think you need to work on the problem from underneath. Whether or not you are accepted for office in the church may be very important to you, but what's even more important, I think, is how it hurts and hinders your relationship with the church. You may pretend not to care, but in heart you know you do. Do you have actual brothers and sisters in your family? If not, do you recall how you were with your classmates in elementary school? You probably felt equal to them and not bothered a bit by anything they didn't like about you. What I'm trying to say is that having God and His strength in the core of your being, as your Father, makes you feel that all other people in the world are "just family", just sisters and brothers, not any better or worse than you. Leaning only on God for approval makes you grow unmoved by the opinion of other people. But you have to really FEEL that from deep experience with it. You get so you no longer compete with church members for respect or worth, for you realize that only can come from God as His gift to you. I know this a hard subject, as I went through it in a most painful, intensive way. But I know how much I changed when I worked on it by making God my center and talking to God about it. After that, I could take or leave honor and office, as Providence would have it. Does this resonnate at all with what you are discussing? :)
Restin Wells